How do I even begin to talk about a day that brings such mixed emotions?
Sadness at the years of what could have been and can never be recaptured.
Joy that he is free from pain and sickness.
Thankful that God led us to reconciliation.
Sadness that our new-found relationship ended too soon.
Wistfully watching dads and daughters interacting.
So joyful that he is with Jesus now.
And so incredibly thankful that I have a Heavenly Abba who loves me.
I suppose I am looking toward the year that it finally gets a little easier. And in some ways, each year has been easier, but in other ways not. But when you lose someone you love way too early, I guess that is what happens. You have to figure out how to face the days that force you to acknowledge your loss. With that being said,
Abba, thank you for my dad. Thank you for the great work you did in both of our hearts so that you could bring reconciliation to us. Thank you that he is no longer in pain or sick, but that he is completely healed and whole… enjoying being in your presence. Tell him that I miss him, and that I look forward to seeing him again… and that I expect him to be ready to give me that hug he still owes me.
Revelation 21: 3 And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. 4 He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”